That Is Not Dead Which Can Eternal Lie

Lost

The softness of your skin
Is lost beneath the roughness of my fingers
Losing my grip
The only sure thing I had left
The power of emotion
Is lost on you I fear
Cannot help but wonder
What it is that holds you here
Nothing more than the shallowness of words
Most of which are better left unheard
Things better left unsaid
Now lack the sentiment of value
Forgot the use of trying
Desparities and vain attempts
Grasping on the edges of something
Something maybe that was never there

-Me, 2008

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“I miss it too, Doctor, but I understand why what happened had to happen.  My brother explained it to me, seeing as he had been there to witness it, but enough of that.  It’s not good to dwell upon the painful past; I’m not saying to forget it, because that is impossible, but not to let it consume you.”

He stretched his massive wings, inspecting the Doctor’s handiwork, and giving a grateful half-smile.  ”It will be awhile until I can fly again, and even when I can again, I have nothing to go back to.  My children are grown and want nothing to do with me.  My ex-husband, who I was bonded to when I was captured, broke the bond during my captivity and wants nothing to do with me.  As I said earlier, my brother I haven’t seen since I fell into this universe.  I have nothing and no one, Doctor.  The Harrier took that all away from me.”

The Doctor took a few paces backwards as Gamma opened his huge wings. “You can stay here for as long as you like. Not here, here.” He said, gesturing at the medical bay. “Here in the TARDIS, I mean. My husband won’t mind.” Or know, he thought. “There are loads of spare rooms. We can go and find you one now, if you like. Oh! And your pie! I’d almost forgotten.”

He slipped an arm around Gamma’s shoulders and motioned him towards the door. “And clothes… you need stuff to wear. Okay, pie, room and then you can have a rummage through my wardrobe. Well, I say my wardrobe. It’s not just my stuff in there. It’s jam-packed with all sorts of odds and sods I’ve collected over the years, so there should be something to fit you.” Of course, he didn’t think for one second that any of this nonsense would make his guest feel any better. As he’d said, he had ‘nothing and no one’, and that saddened the Doctor to the core. He did his best to hide it with a breezy smile. 

Gamma followed the Doctor to the kitchen/mini-dining room, where he basically inhaled the whole 9in pie within minutes.  ”My word!  That was amazing, Doc.  I had almost forgotten what proper food tasted like,” he exclaimed.  He could almost feel the energy returning to his body from that simple bit of food.  He took the plates and silverware to the sink before following the Doctor to the bedrooms.

After looking at several rooms, one finally caught his eye.

Although rather simplistic, its appeal was attributed to the fact it looked like his son’s room in his now ex-husband’s TARDIS.  ”I’ll take this one, if that is alright.  I had a similar room in my now ex-husband’s TARDIS; it was my son’s room.”

Meetings - Campbell & Gamma

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Gamma looked at the boy with a kind expression, head tilted slightly.  ”I’ll tell you what; why don’t you sit and have a chat with me and you eat your muffin and coffee, as I eat the one offered so kindly by you?  People your age aren’t usually as kind as you have been to me, it would be a way for me to thank you.  Besides, I could use the company of a smiling face.”

He beamed widely and sat down next to Gamma. “Sounds like a guid deal tae me - ye sure ye dun want coffee, tho’? I could pop back inside fer ye, nae problem? Or I can share m’ coffee?” Campbell asked, already half back on his feet again. The man seemed nice enough, why not? Cam could definitely be company, though. He’d been told he was good at that, anyway. “Name’s Campbell, by th’ way - an’ ye?”

He smiled warmly as the young man sat next to him, “If you’re offering, I would love a cup of coffee.  Cream and sugar.  You are genuinely a kind-hearted soul, thank you so much.”  He watched the boy bounce his way over to get the coffee, and took it with shaky hands when he returned with it.  ”This coffee smells delightful,” he said with a nod.  ”My name is Gamma Sigma, Campbell.  It is a pleasure to meet you

Hunger

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“No demon is a match for the will of an Elder God, and I am the true eternal here!  My kind were there before your Father even drew breath! It matters little, however.  I will respect the master of this house, and so shall you.  This shall be resolved civilly, or so help me I will devour you both body and soul.”

She ceased struggling, though her eyes still stared into the room. A growl came from her throat, indicating the predator was still large within her. “I am HUNGRY.” She hissed loudly, gripping her husband’s arms.

“Not in my house!” AV roared, energy he didnt realize he had flowing to his eyes. Bits of Asmodeus still remained, it would seem. He bared slowly elongating teeth towards both of them and managed to push himself between them. He lifted his hands and growled. “Not in my TARDIS! Down! Both of you!”

“I am calm, AV.  I am not the one you should worry about,” he replied in a cold, deadly tone.  ”You should watch your missus more closely.”  He turned and went to his rocking chair, changing into his female form, then sat down to feed his beloved children.  Puncturing her nipples so that blood would mix with the milk, she hissed as the twins began to suckle.  She glared at the two outside her room, “Find me a way to keep your woman away from my darlings, or you will lose her forever.”

Hunger

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Gamma gave up on running and flew to his chambers, for the moment ignoring the two on the ground and instead rushing to his crying infants. “Hush my children, it is okay.  Papa is here now … oh my darlings.”  He picked them up from their cribs and held them close to his chest, wrapping his wings around them.

He then looked out to see that AV had tackled Lilith to the ground, and a low, dangerous growl bellowed from deep in his chest.  ”You bitch!  What the flying fuck did you think you were doing?  Going after a demi-Elder God’s children?!  I should devour you for this!”

She growled ferally, struggling under AV’s weight. Her body began to heat, the telling sign that soon her demon form would emerge. Her voice deepened, echoing inside her as her eyes turned completely black. “You were stupid enough to leave them unprotected!” She raged, her nails scratching into the floor. “I am so hungry! I will suck them dry!”

A rumble of laughter emanated from her chest. “You think you can harm me?! I am the first demon! I was there at the dawn of creation! I am a goddess! You are nothing but a pathetic worm and I must FEED!”

AV felt the energy wrapping and buildint between these two and he stood up, standing between them. He outstretched his arms and snarled loudly. “There will be no fighting aboard my TARDIS!” He said, very, very loudly. “Lilith, stand down!” He said, giving his wife a pointed look. “We will discuss this and I’m finding a way to work this out between the two of you!”

“No demon is a match for the will of an Elder God, and I am the true eternal here!  My kind were there before your Father even drew breath! It matters little, however.  I will respect the master of this house, and so shall you.  This shall be resolved civilly, or so help me I will devour you both body and soul.”

Meetings - Campbell & Gamma

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Gamma startled at the chirpy voice, but smiled shyly as he was prone to at kind strangers.  It was uncanny how the boy looked like his younger incarnation, but he didn’t want to freak him out so he made no mention.  

“Oh thank you, lad.  That is very kind of you, but if it is any trouble you should keep it,” he replied in his soft way.  Not that he wouldn’t appreciate it; he was on the thin side and hadn’t eaten in several days, but he wouldn’t want to take the food out of another’s mouth.

He wasn’t at all thrown off by the man’s surprised expression. Instead, Cam put his paper cup of coffee beside him on the ground and opened the paper bag containing the muffins to rummage through it and hand the larger one to Gamma. “Nae trouble at all, I only wan’ed one anyway,” he explained, clearly not taking ‘no’ for an answer. “Tho’ ye can ha’e both ef ye want?” Campbell hurried to add, only now noticing how thin the other man actually was. “An’ m’ coffee, too?” He felt just a bit guilty simply for being able to afford small luxuries while Gamma clearly didn’t even have his basic needs sorted out.

Gamma looked at the boy with a kind expression, head tilted slightly.  ”I’ll tell you what; why don’t you sit and have a chat with me and you eat your muffin and coffee, as I eat the one offered so kindly by you?  People your age aren’t usually as kind as you have been to me, it would be a way for me to thank you.  Besides, I could use the company of a smiling face.”

theharrier submitted: Birther’s day

[Pilot’s mate/pet/toy/beloved… My Pilot’s mate/pet/toy/beloved]
Moros called to Gamma ,softly sings softly disconsolate a low in Gamma’s mind. Calling him inside. The orange glow of the consul was duller then it had been when the Harrier was alive.  It pulsated slowly. Cascading shadows even stranger shadows on the odd textured walls.

Apart of the wall pops open relieving a small box inside

[A requested transfer for after the birthing. He desired you to have it.]

Gamma took out the ornate ring and placed it upon his left ring finger; a perfect fit.  Placing a kiss upon the centre stone, his lips coming away with a wetness upon them.  Licking his lips he found it to be the Harrier’s own blood, so he suckled upon it like a child to their mother’s breast, and the oncoming high he felt overcame the sorrow for a while.

Hunger

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Gamma had been in the library, looking for books to read to his children, when he felt a strange sensation in his chest.  Looking down he saw that he had began to lactate, which to him meant his daughters needed him. As he made his way toward his chambers, he saw AV running in the same direction, and heard some of the servants muttering that Lilith was acting strangely.

He bolted after AV, hoping to get to his room in time.  He couldn’t bear to think what that bitch would do if she got a hold of his little ones.

She could hear others rushing towards her, but her reason was gone. Her logic was gone. All that she could sense and think of was the need to feed and how close she was to the source of her hunger.

Lilith approached the door, her hand on the knob. Her eyes completely black as her basic need took control. Suddenly, she was grabbed from behind, knocked away. Lilith gave a howl, struggling to be freed from her husband’s arms.

He was going to regret this later, but he turned the corner and tackled into Lilith. He kept her head down and growled in her ear. “What in bloody hell do you think you’re doing?!”

Gamma gave up on running and flew to his chambers, for the moment ignoring the two on the ground and instead rushing to his crying infants. “Hush my children, it is okay.  Papa is here now … oh my darlings.”  He picked them up from their cribs and held them close to his chest, wrapping his wings around them.

He then looked out to see that AV had tackled Lilith to the ground, and a low, dangerous growl bellowed from deep in his chest.  ”You bitch!  What the flying fuck did you think you were doing?  Going after a demi-Elder God’s children?!  I should devour you for this!”

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“That’s good. I’m glad things are going smoothly.”He nodded firmly. “If you need anything, I will get it for you.”

“Anything?”  He purred, slinking over to him.  ”I have certain, what you may call needs.  Holes in me that need to be filled, matters that need strong dominance … needs that only you can fulfill.  Is that too much to ask, Master?”

He blinked as the other approached him. He put his hands inside of his coat and he tilted his head to look at Gamma. “I’m not your Master, Gamma.”He said, resting a hand on the others shoulder, then cupping up his head. “But, out of respect for your actual Master, I said I would take care of you in any ways you require. So…” He cupped the others cheeks in both hands and he leaned in. “If that means certain needs to be met, then I shall meet them.”

He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon the man’s lips, “Use me; treat me like I’m yours, fuck me hard until I beg you to stop … then keep going,” he whispered, then kissed him again.  ”Tie me down so I’m helpless to your ravaging.  Abuse my holes and deny me release … anything you want to do or say to me I want you to do.  Please …”

“Very well.”He said simply, his eyes narrowed. “Get on your hands and knees and crawl to me.”He said, beckoning with a finger, then moving to sit in a chair. When the other rested his head onto his lap, he ran his fingers through his hair. “Hmm…what to do with you…” Then he nodded. “Binding it will be then. I will be waiting in the bedroom.”He stood up and shifted to move towards the bedroom, where he stripped down to just his trousers and tossing them to the side.

Gamma stripped down completely and crawled to where the other was waiting for him.  Once there, he went and knelt at his feet; leaning down he kissed the tops of the man’s feet and each toe in turn, before looking up at him innocently.

AV rested back on his chair and nodded. “Good boy. Stay where you are.”He stood up and moved over to find his silken ropes. He walked over, gripping Gamma’s arms and moving to wrap them behind the other. He tied them tight and nipped at Gamma’s ear. “Are you going to be a good boy?”He hissed, shifting to get the blindfold and covering Gamma’s eyes.

Gamma obeyed much like a loyal dog, sitting on his heels with his head down and hands behind his back.  He straightened up as his arms were bound, a short gasp emitting from him as he felt the other’s teeth at his ear.  ”Yes Sir, I’m going to be a good boy,” he replied promptly, growing a little hard as his sight was taken from him with the strip of silken fabric.

He nodded and proceeded to take out a ball gag. He put it into position around the others mouth and he smirked. “Very good.” He said and his hand moved to grope the others bare bottocks.

He mouthed over the ball gag, getting used to its presence in his mouth. A muffled sigh came from him at the teasing touches, but kept stock still.  He kept his head leant back, exposing his throat to show his submission.  He was giving himself up to the other, giving his consent for the man to do whatever his dark soul desired.

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“That’s good. I’m glad things are going smoothly.”He nodded firmly. “If you need anything, I will get it for you.”

“Anything?”  He purred, slinking over to him.  ”I have certain, what you may call needs.  Holes in me that need to be filled, matters that need strong dominance … needs that only you can fulfill.  Is that too much to ask, Master?”

He blinked as the other approached him. He put his hands inside of his coat and he tilted his head to look at Gamma. “I’m not your Master, Gamma.”He said, resting a hand on the others shoulder, then cupping up his head. “But, out of respect for your actual Master, I said I would take care of you in any ways you require. So…” He cupped the others cheeks in both hands and he leaned in. “If that means certain needs to be met, then I shall meet them.”

He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon the man’s lips, “Use me; treat me like I’m yours, fuck me hard until I beg you to stop … then keep going,” he whispered, then kissed him again.  ”Tie me down so I’m helpless to your ravaging.  Abuse my holes and deny me release … anything you want to do or say to me I want you to do.  Please …”

“Very well.”He said simply, his eyes narrowed. “Get on your hands and knees and crawl to me.”He said, beckoning with a finger, then moving to sit in a chair. When the other rested his head onto his lap, he ran his fingers through his hair. “Hmm…what to do with you…” Then he nodded. “Binding it will be then. I will be waiting in the bedroom.”He stood up and shifted to move towards the bedroom, where he stripped down to just his trousers and tossing them to the side.

Gamma stripped down completely and crawled to where the other was waiting for him.  Once there, he went and knelt at his feet; leaning down he kissed the tops of the man’s feet and each toe in turn, before looking up at him innocently.

AV rested back on his chair and nodded. “Good boy. Stay where you are.”He stood up and moved over to find his silken ropes. He walked over, gripping Gamma’s arms and moving to wrap them behind the other. He tied them tight and nipped at Gamma’s ear. “Are you going to be a good boy?”He hissed, shifting to get the blindfold and covering Gamma’s eyes.

Gamma obeyed much like a loyal dog, sitting on his heels with his head down and hands behind his back.  He straightened up as his arms were bound, a short gasp emitting from him as he felt the other’s teeth at his ear.  ”Yes Sir, I’m going to be a good boy,” he replied promptly, growing a little hard as his sight was taken from him with the strip of silken fabric.

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“That’s good. I’m glad things are going smoothly.”He nodded firmly. “If you need anything, I will get it for you.”

“Anything?”  He purred, slinking over to him.  ”I have certain, what you may call needs.  Holes in me that need to be filled, matters that need strong dominance … needs that only you can fulfill.  Is that too much to ask, Master?”

He blinked as the other approached him. He put his hands inside of his coat and he tilted his head to look at Gamma. “I’m not your Master, Gamma.”He said, resting a hand on the others shoulder, then cupping up his head. “But, out of respect for your actual Master, I said I would take care of you in any ways you require. So…” He cupped the others cheeks in both hands and he leaned in. “If that means certain needs to be met, then I shall meet them.”

He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon the man’s lips, “Use me; treat me like I’m yours, fuck me hard until I beg you to stop … then keep going,” he whispered, then kissed him again.  ”Tie me down so I’m helpless to your ravaging.  Abuse my holes and deny me release … anything you want to do or say to me I want you to do.  Please …”

“Very well.”He said simply, his eyes narrowed. “Get on your hands and knees and crawl to me.”He said, beckoning with a finger, then moving to sit in a chair. When the other rested his head onto his lap, he ran his fingers through his hair. “Hmm…what to do with you…” Then he nodded. “Binding it will be then. I will be waiting in the bedroom.”He stood up and shifted to move towards the bedroom, where he stripped down to just his trousers and tossing them to the side.

Gamma stripped down completely and crawled to where the other was waiting for him.  Once there, he went and knelt at his feet; leaning down he kissed the tops of the man’s feet and each toe in turn, before looking up at him innocently.

Hunger

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She staked the halls of the ship, prowling for the source of the smell. It had grown to a fevered pitch in her mind, consuming her and raising her animal instincts. There were children on board the ship and they were fresh. She pushed past the servants, gliding across the floor like the specter of death. Her eyes focused and her senses on fire. There was no thought, no rationale. Only the need to find these children and to feed.

As she reached Gamma’s new room, she let out a low growl. This was the source. She reached for the door, her body pulsing with absolute want and need. She was so hungry, it was time to satisfy the urge.

AV had been tinkering when a young servant had hurried to his side. He leaned in and whispered something in his lords ear and the Valeyard pulled away to stare at him. “She’s what?”

“Heading towards Gamma’s chambers.”

“Bloody hell.” The Valeyard said, standing up. He knew he should have told Gamma to put those pendants on his girls. He didn’t have time to walk. He bloody ran. He bolted from his lab, moving towards Gamma’s rooms to find her before she got into a fight with another very angry demon.

He didn’t want that sort of fight on board his TARDIS.

Gamma had been in the library, looking for books to read to his children, when he felt a strange sensation in his chest.  Looking down he saw that he had began to lactate, which to him meant his daughters needed him. As he made his way toward his chambers, he saw AV running in the same direction, and heard some of the servants muttering that Lilith was acting strangely.

He bolted after AV, hoping to get to his room in time.  He couldn’t bear to think what that bitch would do if she got a hold of his little ones.

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“That’s good. I’m glad things are going smoothly.”He nodded firmly. “If you need anything, I will get it for you.”

“Anything?”  He purred, slinking over to him.  ”I have certain, what you may call needs.  Holes in me that need to be filled, matters that need strong dominance … needs that only you can fulfill.  Is that too much to ask, Master?”

He blinked as the other approached him. He put his hands inside of his coat and he tilted his head to look at Gamma. “I’m not your Master, Gamma.”He said, resting a hand on the others shoulder, then cupping up his head. “But, out of respect for your actual Master, I said I would take care of you in any ways you require. So…” He cupped the others cheeks in both hands and he leaned in. “If that means certain needs to be met, then I shall meet them.”

He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon the man’s lips, “Use me; treat me like I’m yours, fuck me hard until I beg you to stop … then keep going,” he whispered, then kissed him again.  ”Tie me down so I’m helpless to your ravaging.  Abuse my holes and deny me release … anything you want to do or say to me I want you to do.  Please …”

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“That’s good. I’m glad things are going smoothly.”He nodded firmly. “If you need anything, I will get it for you.”

“Anything?”  He purred, slinking over to him.  ”I have certain, what you may call needs.  Holes in me that need to be filled, matters that need strong dominance … needs that only you can fulfill.  Is that too much to ask, Master?”